Drowning fast in my thoughts

hello people.. i am currently feeling very, extremely, absolutely suckish.. i dunno why this just isn't the kind of thing i do.. i feel sooo.. depressed.. i dunno why.. or maybe i do.. i just dunno how to talk about it.. or maybe i just like feeling depressed =/

i know that i sometimes may seem like a total blonde-ass in front of muh friends but i'm not like that.. it's just.. i'm always on the verge of telling them my feelings then i change my mind and wind up seeming very blonde and vrey blur.. so within time i guess this seems like me. but hello, people, i have a brain kays...

the other thing is that i dun like people judging stuff or me without thinking the situation through. and sometimes, cleverr-asses should just keep their clever mouths shut. for want of better word. =/ cz we all know that if u try to prove a clever butt wrong, all you get is a doubtful look or in a worse case scenario, a big fat bitch fight on your hands.

you know the worst part? i have to rant over the net. -_- i can't rant to my mum cz she'll probably get this very pained look that'll say " why mee?? " and even if we talk i know i'll tear up.. ish... and you know what??? i cant even bring myself to rant to my best friends.. cz i guess i'm afraid of sounding stupid.. and well, no one likes to hear people rant right? i hear them rant all the time trust me but cz i rant so seldom, i guess it's just not natural and well, who's intersted in listening to what the tempremental chick has to say? i know i may look angry or frustrated or freakede out but almost always, that just how it is. i LOOK that way, i'm not. cz whenever i DO feel pissed and all, i hide it and shut up. i smile. i joke. i keep it in. that's why people cant tell. all the time when people tell me, okay calm down, in my head i'll be like what are u talking about?? when i try to deny my frustration and explain it's jsut how i look, i get doubtful yea right looks.. THAT pissed me off. BAD. cz i mean, why the hell don't you believe me?? i'm your friend. trust whaat i say and wipe that shit look of your face. so idunno... (i say that alot. i dunno) i guess i'll go on being.. how i am. but it's hard. cz you feel strangulated and like you hv no one to tell.

help i can't breathe

xD yo..

it's over =D PMR is OVER ^^
ah bliss..
so.. i know this pmr news is like OLD, but how many times do i blog hmm??

so, day after merdeka(PMR), I went for choir jamuan at pizza hut in giant.. arrived late cz i was told it was at 2.30 when actually it was at 2 so yea.. =/ ended pretty fast.. nothing much.. walked around after that.. bought a pressie for pengawas jamuan the next day.. and whaddya knw.. i accidently complained about having to buy the present to the very person - blake - who was organizing it.. big oops on my part.. lols but luckily he was cool with it.. neways.. went to jamuan the next day... did stuff.. the whole thing was alright tho admittedly it wasn't was smoothly run as last year's but the location - pearl international hotel - was probably the best ever.. it'll be my year's turn to organize the jamuan.. dunnno HOW on earth we're gonna do it.. we're down on man power.. probably gonna have to get the f1 and f2 s to help us lols.. but wait- why am i like planning it now??? @.@ so.. when the whole jamuan thingie was over, when bk by bus... was bout 11 sth edi.. and guess WHAT.. i forgot to go and exchange my present =.= i gave in my pressie, but didn't take the one that was meant for me... AND AND... i also didn't take back my goodie bag... Loui came over with my bag and sijil and was like let's go.. so i was like okay i've got my bag, phone, ipod.. we're good to go.. =.="" ZA DAO....

and well... it's been pretty tame since then.. OH! i got a heena done.. but it's faded now.. lols.. haven't been taking care of it.. wtv la.. been back to sitiawan to see gma.. stayed with different cousies tho.. met cousies girlfriend and girlfrend's sis for the first time.. they were okay.. the sis was kinda antisocial tho.. =/ so.. haven't been doing much... really wanna go out.. but as i've said time and time again.. I have merdeka-ed.. bro and sis haven't.. so technically, there is no one to take me out.. (-.-) sides,it'd be pretty hard to go out with friends cz we all ain't going to school.. how to plan?? argh... nvm.. we'll figure it out..

oh oh oh .. and for an update today.. i wokee up at like 8 sth.. bathed and ate by 9 sth.. fell asleep at 10 sth and woke up at 1 ... =.= i know.. weird la.. but last night i watched HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE AND IT SUCKED BAD..... the whole movie is practically scene by scene and not flowing..it's like it was chopped up and someone TRIED to glue it back together.. tried, my friends, tried.. he unfortunately failed miserably.. so yea.. Ray was right to boy cott HP.. i mean.. we're both fans but the movie doesn't to the book justice AT ALL...AT ALL PEOPLE!! AT ALL!!! i mean, they cut out the blarddy fight scene at the end.. like, why the hell would they do that?????? the whole story practically builds up to the freakin fight scene at the end.. and wat? you cut it off????????? xiao ar lu?? (=_=) one of Ron's twin brothers DIED in the book??? did anyone of you that didn't read the book freakin know that????? NO! you see waht i mean??? and they're probably gonna come in with the next movie and say " oh yea, and btw, george (i forgot, was it george?? or the other one??) died in the fight at Hogwarts..." and people are gonna be like " waht????? there was a fight?? all the death eaters did was vandalize the place like little kids.. -.-

ah.. neways.. i'm ranting about harry potter.. i sound like some freakin geek of the deep.. == .. but it's true!!! they suckisized the movie...

okay, i'll stop (-_-)

oh well... till i come back with more, ciao

lary

After HOW long?

well true to my word, i've abandoned my blog for sumetime.. but i'm back! *crowd cheers* and as perasan as ever.. currently in the middle of sitting for pmr..still have 2 more days to go.. arggh..!! nvm chill.. well studying sejarah now..can't seem to concentrate as proven by me actually bothering to post something on my blog.. just irritated sydney xD again xD

i can't wait for pmr to be over but clever little me had to go and sign up for chinese so i'll be finishng like 5-6 hours later than the rest of 'em.. how sweet eh? oh well might as well go along with it.. i've already made my decision nothing i can do bout it now.. **see i TOLD you don't sit for chinese but noo you said I promise chen lao shi alredi **

Hug le person on your right cz you know you want to.. if there's no one there, oops

This is my very first post and i am NOT happy.. my freakin laptop is acting up! i've tried installing TWO games and it won't work..

he-lo..it's after exams.. howdahell am i supposed to enjoy myself?? i've like wasted TWO nights trying to entertain myself.. yesterday it was the wii.. we have no good games! thanks to muh bro it's all fighting games or to be exact -- NARUTO fighting games.. which has NO proper storyline and doesn't take much brains to play.. we don't even have burnout paradise.. and the one game i wanna play we've forgotten how to switch on.. so okay, it's partly my fault for being blur that i can't use the wii.. but my laptop!! ARRGGHHH..

anyway, moving on to happier and lighter matters.. i've finally decided to create a blog! yay! i know right.. me?? create a blog?? PPFFFTT !!! but someone, namely a cute girl named Michelle, encouraged me to so yea...=) i still don't know if i'll put in regular posts though.. the last time i had a diary, my entries were like once every half a year.. or more 0_0

but then.. people tell me blogging is a good way to express yourself so i'm giving it a try.. it's quite soothing actually.. i'm just figuring out how to change muh blog skin..it's olible..maybe i'll get someone to do it for me.. hmm..

OH YEA.. Sydney may be coming back to sek 1 !! x) yayy!! she'll find alot's changed tho.. just worried she may not like it.. but seriously syd, 5 As weyh.. you can do it.. in fact, i think dear daddy secretly wants you to come back but won't admit it x)

well, i'm off to play maple on muh bro's laptop.. and yes i do still play maple once in a while syd cz i think monkey story is .. weird.. oh yea btw sry for changing the fonts and colours so much.. i'm having fun exploring this weird box i have to write in.. lols..

oh yesh and to commemorate my getting a blog which i know syd you will find SO freakin weird.. i have decided to post this little pic of the both of us.. cz i find that button to post pics SO COOL x)

Lary, Syd somewhere in Australia's hse x)

ciao people.. till i decide to be back,

lary